Okay. So I haven’t been blogging very often. Bad, bad me. Things have continued to be busy in my neck of the woods and I haven’t been able to fully get back to non-school sewing and therefore blogging about my makes like I had hoped.
That said, I still wanted to update you all on what’s been going on with me. So many things: Good, great and super ugly.
As a (pseudo) fashion student, I was encouraged to enter some of the garments that I’ve made for school projects into this year’s fashion show. At first, I didn’t really want to put any of my makes into the fashion show because all the things are made for my body (not a model) and things made to add to my wardrobe (not my portfolio). I was finally convinced by my classmate to put in as many garments as possible because some of the prizes are ridiculously good ($500 cash, a dress form etc).
I decided to enter a few of the pieces I had made for the advanced sewing course I took last year. Remember these?
I’m also forced to enter the “fantasy/recycled” project I made for the draping class earlier this term.
I’m also going to enter the first corset project I made for the corset class I’m taking this term.
I haven’t had the chance to blog about it, but it is a traditional corset made out of silk brocade I purchased from Mood online. It has a really cool 3-D fish scale ombre pattern on it. Though I’m not sure I’d ever wear it, I really enjoyed learning how to make my first corset! The accompanying skirt I whipped up really quickly was just 4 yards of black poly in a 1.5″ elastic (I love the fabric so I’m going to take it apart to make it into something else after the fashion show is finished).
I’m also entering a dress I draped for my second project, but I didn’t have the chance to take a photograph in it because after I handed it in for grading, it was also submitted to the fashion show committee for a fitting. I promise to blog about it soon (as it is the dress I made to wear on my birthday next month)!
Remember when I laid out the rules for the Stash diet and I mentioned how I could only buy fabric if it was for school or if I went on a trip? Well… I guess things really do manifest when you write them down because I’m going to NYC and back home to Toronto this summer!!!!!
I’m so excited because (wait for it) I’ve never been to NYC before people! Hard to believe, right? But hotels and plane tickets are booked so it is happening! Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesssssssssss!!! I’m hoping to meet up with some blog lovelies out East if they can find the time. And I’m going to try to stick to my 5 piece fabric max. (operative word: try).
As for my trip to Toronto, I have contacted some of the GTA blog loves and we’re hoping to set up a Sewcialist day/night?/dinner? while I’m home. So much fun!!!! On a separate day, I’ll be fabric shopping with a BFF of mine whose wedding I’ll be in next year and we’ll be buying bridesmaid fabric so I can start sketching/muslining my bridesmaid dress. The excitement seems to never end!
Actually it does. Because get ready for…
The Super Ugly
You know the rhyme: “Cheater. Cheater. Pumpkin eater.” So, I’ll start by saying. Hi, my name is Eleyna Gomez and I’m a shopping addict.
As someone with an extremist personality, I’m sure you remember my super gung-ho online declaration that I would be fasting from buying clothes and fabric for all of 2014. And please believe me when I say, I started off with a bang! I did so well, I really did! I was making my own basics and sweaters and wearable jackets. I even made my own workout pants! But things got busy in my life – self-imposed, of course – but busy nonetheless and I guess the stress of it triggered something in me.
When that happens to me, instead of dealing with my stress with relaxation or stepping back and taking a deep breath, I am known to get into distraction-mode where I try to fill my mind with other things instead of dealing with my emotions or releasing my stress. In my case, my distraction of choice is online shopping. True to form, the busier my life got, the more elevated my stress levels, the higher the urge for me to shop for clothes. At first, I needed a way to justify purchases. So, I thought, “if I sell some of my clothes, the money I make from that I’ll use to buy new stuff (no harm, no foul, right?).” So I sold all of my Nike Tight of the Moment pants. I lost some weight and they were not fitting the same anymore (and they were so expensive that I didn’t like that they were just sitting in my closet). Not surprisingly, every single pair sold for a lot more than I purchased them for! So off I went to my favorite online shops buying things I “needed”. But soon, one necessary piece turned into a splurge. Then, into many splurges. And now, I don’t know what to do with myself.
But it gets uglier.
A similar occurrence happened with the stash diet. I had some amazing news a few months ago that I got the promotion I had been hoping for at work. After I found out, I went to the spin class I teach after work and told some of the regulars that take my class how ecstatic I was. A week later, one of the kindest, most generous regulars gave me a card congratulating me on my promotion and in the card was a note saying how proud of me she was and how much she also supported my sewing endeavors. She wanted me to take a small token of her support to buy fabric for my projects (she gave me $$$ for fabric!).
So I thought, “if this money was meant for fabric, it would be wrong of me to use it on anything else.” So, I bought fabric. Then, I bought a bit more. And it seems after the “alotted for fabric” money was gone – I was still buying fabric!
The truth is that I’m super ashamed and the guilt of it all has probably lead me to avoid blogging altogether. But I wanted to finally come clean because what is the point of it all if I can’t be honest you but most especially honest with myself?! What I’ve learned (from my own extreme personality) is that even though I don’t like to admit it, it’s almost impossible to be perfect at anything on the first attempt. Maybe I made things a little too strict for myself the first time around. But I want to get back on the RTW fast and Stash Diet wagon and try again. I’ve realized that my shopping impulses actually have nothing to do with what I’m actually buying and more to do with the unhappiness I sometimes feel with the busy-ness of my schedule. This was and is a hard thing for me to swallow because I chose this schedule – so I really have no one to point fingers at but myself!
Anyway, thanks for letting me get it all out there! I hope the gods of online declarations will forgive me and let me have a chance to redeem myself! As a first effort at redemption, I made my wonderful spinning angel some workout pants to wear to her favorite instructor’s spin classes. After all, it was her gracious gift that allowed me to buy this beautiful fabric (from Jo-Ann’s) in the first place.
I’m giving them to her at class tonight – I hope she loves them and I really hope they fit!
So, that is my super long update of the good, great and super ugly of my life right now. I intended to make a Me-Made-May’14 declaration in this post but I think I’ll pause and really think about what is truly do-able for me right now and the intention I have about participating in it before I make any more hasty declarations.
In the meantime, I hope you are all well and I hope to post again sooner than later. Happy April, everyone!